what's the sense of beginning

Everytime I'm doing this I start with a commitment. in fact I put a commitment in every start. but I never get to the end. Let's not make commitments. may I get to an end then?! this discussion I've had before. never got an answer. or, to be complete, as I like so, I always get the logical answer: if you don't put a start you have not what to end.
then my topic furthermore should be: commitment - list of substitutes. don't forget they must comprise the same power of impulse and empowerment my personal commitments used to comprise BUT: they must not imply any promise or suggestion of what I have in mind to do for the future.
the way I see this now: the ideal life string: thin, continuous, equal, going on and on and on, no commitments, no beginnings and no end, still, it's life, and it's going along and moving. why can't it be so simple. poor string... it got stuck in the needle's hole because of a tangle. what's doing a tangle in the thread?!?!?! who's tying up these things. someone must keep its fingers in the pockets.
Now I began. without commitment, without being a beginning, because I had begun this before. and I remember when I last wondered "for how many times am I gonna still have the strength to start it all over again?". I have this written still in the message box of my phone. useless to mention when. especially because now I'm saying it again.

so I begin, unable not to commit the fraud of thinking of the only commitment I wish to make at this hour: to start this again once I'll have posted this post.
and more sense full.. if I may hope...